Blogging?

Blogging can be boring. 

I really don't want to issue a pass, because if i do, I can't reward myself with two books, like I want to. 

There are some days where I have blogged twice, doesn't that kind of make up for the fact that today's sucks? 

NO. Kelly: You need to blog. 

Ok, about what?

I re-friended Macon on facebook. Why? I have NO FUCKING IDEA. It can take me one week to two years to get over someone. This has been about a month and a half. I haven't decided whether I'm over him or not. Also, he's reading this, which is fun. HI MACON! 

He only comments on my posts when I mention him. That's fun to watch. Otherwise, he's like, "Ok, not about me, I don't care." Which is very him. He never really cared about my life or who i was. It took me two [no, three?] months to tell him about my depression, something that effects me EVERYDAY and everyone I know knows about it. It took me, what, four days to tell you guys? That's who I am. I'm open about my depression and that it still effects me. [affects me? god, i'm going to be a sucky English teacher.] 

But, he's Macon. He's selfish as hell. And he'll write that he did care about me, but really, i don't think he did. No, that's a lie. He did care about me, but I was his Edward. It didn't matter what music i liked or which books i read or anything, i was what he wanted me to be. I was someone who liked him, that's what he cared about. He cared about the fact that I liked him and I had feelings for him and he saw it as an opportunity to get laid [in the sense that he was getting action, not that we were having sex-because we didn't]. 

Ask him what my favorite movie is, or my favorite song, my favorite book, why I like boys like him, or  why i like RENT and Broadway. He can't tell you. He knows nothing about me. 

Wow. I just realized. Macon was a lot like Michael, except Michael didn't want me because I didn't have a penis. 

Now THAT is a story. Maybe we should have story time next weeks with my ex's. Who's in? Cause they sure are a bunch of characters. 

On another note, I'm failing with Ron. I think. Idk. Dating is hard. I should text Potter....

TODAY IS AWESOME BECAUSE MY BEST FRIEND IS COMING OVER AND WE'RE ARE BEING AWESOME TOGETHER AND MAKING EPIC THINGS OCCUR!