Who Am I?

Three years ago I would have said that I despised smokers, hated cheaters, would never be a partier and I definitely would not be a whore.

Well....now it's three years later and i am a total hypocrite. i don't mind smokers, i even kiss them and buy them cigarettes; i don't hate cheaters, but...ugh. thats the annoying one; i AM a total partier; and i am the biggest whore i know.

Whore?

I'm a whore?

Well, not in the sleeping-with-every-guy-i-meet whore, but the leading-boys-on-that-i-don't-like whore.

For the first time in my life i have about.....7-8 guys who are attracted to me. i'm not being cocky, i'm just stating a fact. and i only care about the one that i literally can not be with.

well, i literally can not be with anyone. i leave Worcester in a week and I leave England in two weeks.

I've turned into someone that i would have hated three years ago. and i should hate this person i've become, but i don't. she's awesome. she has mulitple guys vying for her attention, what is wrong with that?

the fact is that i'm distracting one away from his girlfriend. and that's wrong. i should not be flirting with him. i should not be talking with him. i am attracted to him and i'm leaving and i'm going to miss him loads, but i....i can't be a cheater.

I just.....i have to be awesome. and that's not awesome.